Being an introvert is hard. I mean, you can’t tell everyone about what you feel or you’re not too expressive about what you really feel. A few weeks ago, I was invited to attend a friend’s graduation party (well, i jokingly requested her to invite me because her mom makes yummy, delicious, and palatable macaroni salad) So there. She invited me through text and i said yes. I was thinking that it might make me less introvert if i socialize with other people. But i guess it didn’t work. [As soon as I arrived, somebody led the prayer. It was like they were all waiting for me so they can eat na. Well unfortunately, there was no sign of macaroni salad. All i saw was meat, meat, and… meat.] okay so that [ ] part was irrelevant but i just wanted to say that i was 3% disappointed because of that.
Anyway, like i said, attending the party didn’t make me less introvert. it hardly changed anything. I just ate lumpia (my favorite aside from sinigang), beef steak, and i-could-no-longer-remember-the-third-one-maybe-because-i-have-a-selective-amnesia. I think there was spaghetti but i didn’t eat because my plate’s already full and i didn’t want others to think that i’m a dead-hungry person.
There were many people there, i think there were 30 to 40 people and half of therm were my ex-classmates and ex-schoolmates. Most of them are not my close friends. Some are acquaintances. But even if they are my ex-classmates and schoolmates, i still couldn’t find the right words to talk to them. I mean, I was there, sitting quietly. Good thing i had my phone with me to save me from doing nothing. My friend was busy accommodating guests while i was there
in a multitude of people and my mind was blank. I tried to think of words to say but nothing popped out. Though i did talk to 5 of them (excluding my friend slash invitor)
okay, so here’s one picture of me with the others. Being an introvert keeps me from telling everyone what you feel. I was never able to tell them how painful my butt was for sitting there for quite a long time. Because i’m skinny (as skinny as a skinny jeans), sitting on a hard surface makes your butt cheeks cheek butts cheeks of the butt painful. I tried so many positions to make it less painful. I sat in Indian style, stretched my legs, 69, president, and whatever position. And there’s this picturer who kept on taking pictures of us. And i didn’t like it because i’m not the type who loves being taken pictures of. I’d rather do self-shots than that.
and i’ll include this one because i’m feeler and because my other friend said that i look super duper ultra mega very gwapo.
and yes, kaayo means super duper ultra mega very because it denotes degree or level. K.